W told me she is done & doesn't love me anymore.

[Snowman]

Well my wife randomly came over to get the camera because she was going to the Circus today with her wonderful father and my son. She said hardly anything and came and got the camera and left. I saw my son and expressed my love for him. I asked my wife is she needed any toys for my son and she said no. She then left. Just her being at the house mad my body feel extremely warm and my emotions go crazy. I started to sweat like crazy.

I just had a hard time tonight on my knees in prayer. I can not bare this pain alone. I want my family and wife back. Why has this happen to me? I would do anything to have my family back. Why has my wife done this to us? Why is all I can think and she won't open to me at all. I am in tears and pain that I wish upon no one.

We talked last Saturday but she really had nothing much to say to the simple questions I asked. She said she felt the same still at this point and not attracted to me. I'm not sure if she said that out of anger or to be mean. She will not do marriage counseling unless she has decided to work on it. She is going to IC and so am I but I have no idea what issues she is working through other than communication issues and supposedly her feelings about me. She leaves me in the dark just making me wait for some unknown time frame. This is a living hell.