Do I stay or do I go?

[anyhope]

Well, he is home. I got to read a few heartfelt messages posted to him by ow of how shell miss him and love him and what not. This was even before he'd get home.

Once home he came home and asked me a few times to go to his birthday party. Some friends also brought up the idea, but I said I don't think I should go and no explaining needed. Everyone understands what's going on. I may have even went if it's another day not right the moment he gets home from her.

For some reason our Internet connection as well as the tv connection got disconnected on Saturday afternoon, but before he left for the party he connected my phone to his laptop as I have a data plan on my phone. Pretty dangerous combination there.. Me with his laptop all alone. I saw no point of checking his email or Facebook as they were together and most likely communicated in person, however I did decide to see pictures..

Shocking shocking.. I found naked pictures of ow in a forest they went to. As I hear from one of our friend that met her she is a very free soul.. Has no problem kissing random people at an event, multiple in one occasion, male or female doesn't matter.. Looks like she also likes to get naked in the wild, which I'm sure might be arousing and unique to a man in mlc. I was never in my life this free spirit, nor could I compete with her, nor would I want to. Just way too much.

Another few photos I found interesting was a few taken of my dog just last month when I went out for my birthday. I could tell she was there as soon as I got home from the party I went to, becasue he'll with the breakup and all I was gonna celebrate my birthday. My husband showed up at the party to really late. He said he was going to drop off ow at a lesbian party she likes to go to (she is bysexual, not sure if I mentioned this before) but even as I write this it just sounds stunning to me what is happening, who he left me for...

Well anyways, so after we celebrate my birthday I came home and he went to a mutual friends house. There was a glass on the coffee table with a weird drink dried to the glass.. Something we don't have at home.. Something I thought he wouldn't drink while home alone, I walked around and found one or two very small things that looked like they were not in the same place they're always are.. Might sound crazy but I had a deep feelng in my heart that she was there. He knew I wasn't gonna come home for a while.. I called him right away and asaked if he brought her here, of course you can all guess the answer to that one.. He said I was crazy.

So anyhow I didn't have a good feeling , but I had no proof.. Inspected the glass for lipstick marks, but there were none.

Yesterday however looking at pictures of them, of her naked and going back in time and these pictures of my dog come up marked that date when I was out, on one of the photos I see the tip of a thumb. Not a clear picture, but it doesnt look like my husbands thumb, so I got pretty pissed. Isn't this the worse of all. Bringing her to our house.. I was so glad I didn't go to the party at this point.

I feel sorry for him because I know he is kinda ruining his life. Not because he's not with me.. But there are so many other normal women out there to have a meaningful relationship with, yet, he goes for her.

He came home after the party, no need to say I was still up tossing and turning in my bed. I checked Facebook on my phone to see if any photos were posted of the party. No photos, however he did change his status to being in a relationship with her. No need to say I feel terrible about that as he had said he wants nothing from her and I thought she was just playing him, which she still might, after all she is a sorry little hooker..

Sorry for the long post here.. But it's a long story, that still breaks my heart.. I wish it was all over already.