Got an apology from XH. Need advice now.

[AntoniaB]

Thanks guys, hug and slap made me laugh, and Beatrice, that's so right.

Yeah I'm not upset just flabbergasted. As in, this crap no longer makes me feel queasy in my stomach, which was always the signal I was going to lose sleep over it.

And like a moron I still have some insane hope that if I just navigate this sort of thing right that 5 years from now I'll have a rel. with him when really the only thing making me want that at all is that it's all I knew.