Counseling is a good thing, I'm glad you are doing that for yourself.
As hard as it is, you have to let go of the what if's and just live your life. I know it is very hard to do, but it is important. My thoughts wander constantly to my H but I have to remind myself and sometimes out loud, that the ONLY thing I have control of is myself and my actions. Whether your H enjoys life with or without you is out of your control. Yes, your attitude and behavior can sway him one way or the other, but if he is done with you there is nothing you can do about it. The best gift you can give yourself is to take care of yourself. You are getting there. Continue to focus on you. Become the best woman I can be.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤