I feel like I have no hope left. I keep praying that he will come around, but nothing. The last contact I have had with him was last Tuesday. I miss him. I have decided not to contact him and let him be. But when I think about him, I get this sudden anxiety attack and my heart starts to race. I feel like if I leave him alone, that he will like it and I will lose him forever. I did go to the doctor this past week to get me some medicine for my depression and anxiety. I am taking it one day at time, but that's about it. I am in counciling every week to help me deal be able to deal with day to day issues.
