You are most certainly over analyzing. It's so tough not to. I just hope that these moments of analyzing are restricted to the boards. Dump that baggage here and leave it here.
I can't imagine going through all of this with kids in the picture. That's beyond my ability to empathize. I'm not sure I'd handle it nearly as well as you.
Didn't realize you had an alcoholic mother. Me too. Mines been a big part of our M problems. We almost lost her to alcoholism a few years back. Went through hell with the family stuff. Had some really close calls with an upper gi bleed. Really nasty scary. But my point is this. Even if the alcoholism goes away, the alcoholic personality patterns will not go away on their own. Those patterns can exist in people who were never drinkers but grew up around it.
Just something to think about. My W runs and hides when my mother comes around. Will not speak to her.
So on to better things. I may have missed it but what are you doing for you?
