TM, I'm sorry you are having a rough time the past few weeks. Sometimes our journey through this has dark parts that last a little longer than we want to.
In regards to your email conversation with your w. I agree with alot of what was said.
Even when we do our best to validate and listen, sometimes we still end up the bad guy because we weren't a doormat. Your w rather than looking at herself, blamed you. Very typical stuff.
You will feel the backlash for that. IDK how long. My w took at least a month before she could talk civil to me after I froze the account because she broke our agreement.
Just try to be ok with the NC and your decision. Don't allow you to 2nd guess yourself.. because that isn't going to do any good either.
Letting go is a process. It's a two step forward, one step back deal.. at least for me. I believe feeling the sadness and anger.. even letting your mind beat you up is all part of that process. No one let's go of the rope that quickly. If they do.. they are either lying to themselves or are doing it in a very unhealthy way (IMO).
Allow the emotions to wash over you. Allow yourself a bad day, week, or month. No one is expecting you to just wake up and be "ok" so you shouldn't either. Just by allowing yourself to have those feelings and for showing yourself that grace.. you ARE working on yourself!
And yes I agree.. all the new stories is depressing.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
