TM, I'm right there emotionally with you, brother...
Saying and doing are often two complete opposites of the spectrum...
I'm back to feeling like the only reason I'm standing is because I don't have a choice... and the first (easy) out that comes my way... I want to take it...
And I know that won't change a lot... except that I'll be able to call my W, my X...
The negative mind says to me... "Man... you make a bad choice in your life and it sticks to you like herpes..."
And the only thing I can think of right now is... wake up... live the day... go to sleep...
We know it gets easier... and then it gets harder... and then it gets easier, again...
What to do...? GAL... get away from situations and environments and people that are allowing you to have those thoughts (idle minds?)... and get your mind and body active doing things that push those negative thoughts...
