Guess I will just start using this space as a journal. It's the first time so much time has gone by without contact. I'm just trying to let go. So difficult to do. Went to a ballgame with some family. The train ride was like hell. My stomach was in a knot. People conversing in loud tones made my head want to explode. Family kept trying to engage me in conversation but I just don't care about whats going on in mid East, who will be the next president, if it rains all freaking year.... just longed to be alone. Sleep is the on;y good feeling. Getting way too much of it though. Trying to get through the grief stage. Not sure what to do about the anger stage, can I skip that one?
This is the part of the trip that makes you wonder why you ever get in the car to start with.
