I know it's hard to see families when you are out, but like Sandi said, you are going to have to accept that and talk yourself through it. I took my 4 kids to the beach for vacation on my own just 2 weeks after my H moved out. Staying at a family resort was tough on me, but I got through it. You can, too. Sandi had a good suggestion for talking to yourself. Maybe it's not something you feel comfortable doing at first, but DB'ing isn't about doing what you're comfortable with...your old ways aren't working for you. It's about coming out of your comfort zone and trying new things, to improve yourself and hopefully your marriage. I hope your cry helped release some tension and you can feel a little relief. I know that always helps me. Best wishes to you, lc4