Yes we both do well with letters and notes...in fact in my letter I suggested we revisit the whole e-mail thing. Right now, however it seems he's taking a break from his computer...hasn't really been on it in over a week.
LL...glad your Christmas was good!
Ellie...same to you! Jewellery!...maybe those commercials got to your H!
Yes, it's been just over a year for me, since bomb two..Late Feb since the A's been over...but I am SO grateful to be where I am this year.
As much as I wouldn't wish what we've all been through on anyone, I must admit that I'm more grateful for the things I used to take for granted or even get pissy about: the decorations, being together, making plans...
Okay, so tell me where THIS nasty impulse came from today:
I'm sitting in the back room (CJ's asleep), thinking about his letter and the fantasy of e-mailing it to HER flashed through my mind.
I know, revenge pure and simple. I mean the THINGS she e-mailed to me, people! Photos, love letters, plane ticket information...
Some vengeful part of me WANTS her to read CJ's words...how he's always loved me...how he dismisses her outright. Toward the end of the letter, CJ expresses amazement at how he let OW control him ..how he told her things and wrote stuff to shut her up...and how weak he was for doing so.
(Tal, am I EVER glad I didn't ASK for a letter!!!)
But of course I WILL NOT send his precious letter to that...person... I don't want to reopen that door for anything.
WEll best shut 'er down and try to do the same for my late night mind!
