The way she looked, the way she smiled at the kids playing while we spoke, the things she said all point to she wants "us", the big "but" in that is me drinking
That's why the interest in the aa meetings and how I feel The call on Thursday about money wasn't really about money it was to ask if I was going to my meeting This is all on me now
The om? Forget him, it might not be a PA yet, even if it is, he can't compete with me, he hasn't the history and feelings my wife and I have He will never be anything to my kids, she knows that
So he's trying, he's trying really hard, but it's a fight he cannot win I've already won
I just need to remind her of the person I was/am, and not the person I became
She loves me, I know that, and she knows that
The conversation today was great and showed me that I cannot give up trying
I'm not contacting her again, that's down to her I've sown the seed in her mind, she has to want it to grow
