I had the kids last night, it was great, we went to the cinema and pizza after, we laughed and had great fun
This morning we were up early, I made an effort to look good as I knew I was seeing my wife later, son dropped off at football, and daughter and I shopping
And can a 9 year old spend!!!
New coat, new tops, and new shoes, she has discovered fashion and loves clothes, and daddy has to supply!!! Ha ha
I got a few things , then got my watch back, it looked new, all polished and gleaming I was really pleased!!
As we shopped I got a text off my wife asking if I could take them back 30minutes late, as she was out I sent back no problem, I'm shopping with d, and she can spend money like her mum!! She texted back hope she got her north face gilet??
This was a reference to a conversation we had a few weeks ago, I again was shopping with d and my wife asked to get a gilet for her but in my wifes size! I joked back " yeah right", and left it, so it was funny her mentioning it again?
So I get my son, we go for lunch, and I take them back
Wife comes straight out, I haven't seen her for 2 weeks!!! She looked good
As soon as she saw me she mentioned my new clothes, from jeans, to shoes, to t-shirt!! She always liked good shoes and loved my new ones, rightly so they cost a fair bit!! Ha ha, but mission completed, I made her take notice!!!
My daughter was all excited showing mum her clothes etc, and my wife was really happy, saying I spoil her, I joked it was only money I saved on drink!!! Ha ha
She then mentioned the north face gilet? I said I had saw one, but thought it wrong to buy her a gift, she just smiled
She then started to ask about me, my aa meetings, how I felt etc??? I just said everything was great, I felt good and healthy, she mentioned the sprint triathlon and was really interested in it, I started to feel a little uncomfortable, the interest she had in me was pulling me in, and I looked at her and it hurt
The more I tried to leave, the more she made conversation, I didn't want to look ignorant and just answered her questions
She then said that she was pleased that we could be friends again and get on after last week, I apologised and said I was sorry and had no right to say the things I said She was fine about it and short of laughed it off??
I then said that as long as she was happy I was, at which she said " what's happy?"
I explained that she was happy now and had what she wanted, she replied she never wanted to be a single parent, but it was better than being married to a drunk, and she wished she was married and happy with our kids?? She said she had to leave, I said I know, and I was glad she did as it's got me where I am today, sober, she was pleased
I then said that I knew somewhere down the line we would end up back together, we both loved each other, you cannot turn it off, but that was all depending on me maintaining how I am now, she smiled a knowing smile, and I felt great!!!
At that her friends arrived to she her, as they walked up, my wife joked that I was her best friend again after wanting to kill her last weekend!!!
We all laughed and I waved bye
Wtf is happening here!!!
Om was not mentioned at all, but I don't think he's long term by her comments?? I feel she is watching me, testing me??
I know we will get back together sometime, when is up to her, but I have to keep the change going
I cannot believe how hopeful I and today compared to last week This is a longterm commitment, for the rest of my life, but it's worth it to have her back
