Lost mine again to disastrous effect last night ( see my thread in newcomers) due to fear and anger getting the upper hand.
It feels so bad to have set everything back so far by doing all the wrong things.
Don't slip up, take it slow.
Thinking of you.
Wretched, we all backslide from time to time. That's called being human! Your situation is far from over. Deep breaths, start again tomorrow. Thanks for your thoughts, sweet friend.