Pretty sure this is a MLC or Identity Crisis

[tested metal]

Really having a tough time detaching. Everytime I start to feel better and think I am getting over it someone gives me info about the current A. I know that I can't expect her to come back and part of me doesn't want her back. What really hurts is that she has done everything in her power to erase me out of her life and constantly rubs my face in it. It is hard not to take it personally.

I would like to have NC but have to as she does it whenever we exchange daughter for visits.

I am doing my best to GAL, by spending as much quality time with daughter and doing the list above, but it has really been a challange to keep eye contact with W, and keep my emotions under control while she is face rubbing. I have been pretty short by just saying, "I got to go." The good news is I have a business trip and wedding so I won't see W for 5 days, the bad news is I won't see D for 4 days.

I will carry on though and get through this. Just needed to journal this.