Stillness

[aeolianchaos]

Finah,

Thank you for your input. I noticed her doing this "you don't have to.." thing and decided not to react.

I don't know what she is doing. I don't know if she needs me or wants me. A big part of me still wants her and wants the relationship (or something resembling what I believe it could be) but .

You bring up whether or not she is involved w/ OM. And this
My concern as well.

I think it speaks to something very illogical in her if she believes that our relationship important enough to me that I would remain friends w/ her after all of this, yet not valuable enough for her to put any effort into sustaining the marriage.

Maybe this is emotional fusion at work..

I don't know. I know that as of July she was still 'hanging around' with the OM (he doesn't live in this state, but his parents do) based on a facebook photo. Whether that translates into sleeping with him still.. I try not to think about it. I don't know that asking would be of much service to my cause.

At this point, I'm doing my best to handle it in the way that calls on the best in who I am.

I'd like it to be "genuine and she is just kind of scared and unsure." Whether or not it is.. well I can only hope I perceive it.