Thanks as usual, JB. I'm really struggling right now, I'm terrified and now instead of pursuing me he is pulling away. Told me yesterday he wasn't sure if he wanted to spend the holidays with us.
This is something I have such a hard time with- the holidays are so important to me, and I have always wanted to create those warm, fuzzy memories for my D. This year I am totally dreading them, thinking about her having 'two' Christmases and how to explain why Santa came twice. Anyone have some advice on how to deal with this?
We had a R talk yesterday, kind of unavoidable but I again failed at DBing. He says he has a lot of fear about us getting back together, and doesn't explain why or what would make it better. Also doesn't want to see a MC. I am so frustrated, since he apparently wants to 'date', but can't even commit to the holidays?
On top of everything, I still don't know what to do about my living situation. The thought of trying to find/pay for/move into a new place, yet another transition for my D, makes me want to throw up. Especially since she keeps asking me why we can't go home.
