I know I am supposed to detach but this morning I was laying there, and he put his arm around me and suddenly broke down crying really hard. I sat up and was quiet next to him. He then told me...
1. I'm losing my mind. I'm a jerk, I'm losing it and going crazy. 2. I'm conflicted and scared. 3. I don't know why you want me. All i do is cause you pain. 4. I don't want to lose you. 5. When I go hiking or play music I feel like I can sort through my feelings. I come back feeling better.
I was worried to see him crying and saying he was losing his mind. I was very quiet letting him do the talking. When he was done, I said, "how bout a hike today?"
He was crying really hard... I felt powerless. But later he thanked me for listening.
Did any of your spouses go through this intense depression...
I feel like after ow pretty much cut him off... it sent him spiraling downward. It's been going for days. However, as I said, yesterday he was doing ok.
25, today I almost feel detached from his pain. I feel like I'm standing outside the window looking in and watching all of this, even though I feel worried and scared for him.
