Oh Goodfight I am so sorry for what you went through. I know how much you crave just the short burst of intimacy that we as women seem to take so much more importantly than most men. Not to feel as if you have become some sort of pariah.
Just don't believe that you are back to square one in detachment. You've come a very long way, and this was just a setback - nothing else. Do not give it any more importance than that.
Reading you story makes me glad my X never made the attempt, although at some point I dearly craved it.
