H just stopped by for a couple of minutes to see the boys. I think I did well. He was kind enough to stop by the pharmacy to pick up S1's prescription. I thanked him for that. I popped a snack for myself into the oven, then retreated to my bedroom to read. He came back there a couple of minutes later and asked what I was doing. I told him I was reading. He said, "No. Why are you back here?" I told him that he was here to see the boys, not me, and thought I'd give them some time alone together. By that time, D4 came in and everyone just kind of hung out where I was trying to read. Before he left, he asked me if I had found a job yet. I told him no. I also told him that I have a couple of appointments with Ls next week. He said, "Okay, but what happened to mediation?" I had suggested mediation to him a while back, but he ignored me. I told him as much, but also said I am still open to it. He said, "Okay" and left.
Detaching it hard. He still gives me butterflies when he's around. I miss him so much. What I wouldn't give for him to just touch me.
