I've decided to post this because sometimes I edit myself and its not always the most helpful because I don't get the benefit of someone being able to help knowing all the facts. Anyway, I had a bad day yesterday. I found out I'm probably not going to get my mortgage and then my ex brought that woman by again. The truth is as much as I try to detach I would still try to work things out if he said he wanted to try. At the very least I'm trying to stay friends. I'm trying to not put it out there that I want him back because that is pointless. If he ever decided to try again it would have to be him making that decision, not me pushing him into it. I am trying to move on and let what is going to happen, happen. Its really hard to do.
