I don't know if I am posting this is the right forum or not, and I apologize if I didn't. I have posted my story in the newcomer forum, but it isn't showing up yet.
I found this site yesterday and have spent the last 24 hours reading different posts. To summarize my story, my husband and I have been separated since January. We started living together again at the end of August, but he is still insisting on going through with the divorce.
Yesterday I was reading about loving detachment on here. I still don't know exactly what that is, but I took it as just giving him some space. My H has started to not like being at home. There are times when he is home that he will do things with the kids and I, and other times that he is constantly on this computer ignoring us.
Yesterday after reading some post, I sent him a text that said that supper would be ready by 6 and that the kids and I would like for him to join us. He asked me how I knew that kids wanted him here. I told him that they had mentioned it a couple of times the past couple of weeks. I did not get a reply after that.
I went ahead and had supper done by 6 even though I was not expecting him to show up. The kids and I sat down to eat. At 6:15 he pulled in. I was completely amazed, but tried to not get excited. Our s asked him if he would throw the football with him after supper. He said he would have to see.
After supper my H, S and D went outside while I did dishes. I looked out and my s and d were throwing the football and my H was sitting on the back step not paying attention to them at all. He then came inside and got on his computer. My s came in and asked his dad if he was going to throw the football with him. H said he was busy and couldn't. I ended up going outside and throwing the football with my s and d.
I came inside and got back on this forum to do more reading. My H came into the room and said he was going for a walk. (He never goes for a walk!) I just said ok and went back to my computer. He just stood there looking at me dumbfounded. He then asked if I was going to go with him. I said I would and we walked around for about 30 minutes. It as hard for me to walk down the street with him and not be holding his hand. But I didn't want to pressure him and ruin the time we were having.
We came home and I suggested we watch a movie. He rolled his eyes and signed a little. I told him he didn't have to if he didn't want to. He then agreed and he picked out a movie. After the movie was over, he went right back to his computer. I went and soaked in the tub and then I went to bed. He came into the bedroom and asked if I was ready to have the light turned out. I told him I was and he said ok, I'm sleeping on the couch tonight. I just said ok and rolled over in bed. I started praying that he would end up coming to bed with me.
I woke up this morning and he was laying in the bed next to me. I rolled over and put my arm around him and kissed his shoulder. When we got up, there wasn't much conversation going on. He went to work, and I got the kids ready for school.
I text him this morning asking how his day was going. We talked about our day a little bit and then he went back to work. I was feeling really good about everything. But then on his lunch break, he text me and asked if I had signed and mailed back the divorce paper work to my attorney. I told him I had not because he wanted to meet with me to go over it. This really ticked him off.
I don't understand how he could be so kind and caring one minute and then turn into a monster the next! I don't know what is going on with him, and I don't think he even cares how much he is hurting me. I have been to the point where I just want to give up, but then I start praying. I feel like God is leading me to keep going with this.
