Thanks AJM and 25. Yes it does make sense 25. I fell for it again, H just seemed for the first time that he meant what he was saying about regrets. When he admitted to being messed up in the head and needing help I really honestly thought that was a big step, but obviously not.....according to this site.
It won't happen again, I know I've said it before but didn't follow through a couple of times and I think it was because I just wanted to feel loved again. This last time I fell for it because of his admission to being ill. And also him saying that he is so confused and can't think straight a lot of times. I felt sorry for him, he told me he's always alone, has no friends, and no life and is so down about everything. I wanted to be there for him and help and obviously after a few days he went back to being mean and evil and didn't want me to be there for him. I don't know.
What I do know is until he decides and goes through with getting help I won't be used again. I feel like a real a** now. I read somewhere on here that it is a good thing if you still have relations even if separated as long as there is no OP in their life. Wow, that was way off I guess. Cause I got attached again. I still do have a life, and you're right 25, why do I care what they think of me. H made me feel that way and I started to care what they thought of me because he said it would be so much easier if there wasn't tension with his family. So I thought do the right thing (by God) and try to make amends with them. That was back in Jan., only to be rejected by them also, but I was doing it for H, not them.
Okay, got to start to detach all over again. I already GAL and have had one for a while now, and it feels good.
