I am not trying to make you feel worse than you already do.
You need to detach.
This isn't helping.
The only reason to call her is to make YOU feel better.
And I don't think it will.
I don't want to contradict the advice you are getting but I want to point out what your coach may not be privy to and that is that you can't handle the interactions right now.
You are so full of fear and tentitiveness.
Your are like a nervous puppy that has been smacked away from its feeding bowl.
Whatever the outcome you have got to stop being the victim here.
Just stop it.
You are a good man. You made some mistakes but everyone does. She is not your judge and executioner.
So STOP giving her that power!
The only mistakes are ones you don't learn from and do better.
How can you do better?
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
