Just a quick update....I'm still reading all of the suggested books...and then some. I forgot how much I like to read. My emotions seem to be smoothing out a bit. I still get down sometimes and right now I miss her...a lot. Sometimes i feel like my situation is hopeless. I just keep reminding myself that these are just feelings. Sometimes I feel like eating steak and sometimes I feel like eating chicken. Feelings are just fleeting moments that will change with time. Plus, this gives me some practice on being more positive and controlling my emotions.
I'm still giving my W her space. I saw her briefly tonight when I dropped some stuff off for the girls. I really want to talk to her and pursue. This is not an option though. It's not about me anymore. I love her too much to put any pressure on her. If space is what she wants, then I am happy to give it to her. I'm a big boy and can keep my emotions in check. The last thing she needs is an emotional, desperate, needy, selfish little boy chasing her around wanting attention so that he can fell better or justify his behavior. She's got enough to figure out. This is her time now.
