Wife no longer in love with me - Part 3

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Thanks for the advice all. It was definitely a sh!t day.
I had a session with my IC last night and unloaded on her about everything.
She made a good point in that I seem to have such a different view on our M than my W. All I see are the good things, the fun, laughs and best friends - whereas my W just sees the negatives and crap that went down and the way I didn't make her feel special.
I really had no idea it was that bad for her or that she was ever thinking like that.
I was so caught up in my own world and worrying about my work and career, that I didn't realise how uneven the M was or how I would have been to live with. I can see all that now, I see everything. I see who I was and I hate that person. I see how it made her feel, I understand her sadness. I lived in this false world where I never thought she would leave me, she was always the one who was so affectionate and in love and adored me. I thought once we were married, that was it. There would be ups and downs and we could get through them.
I know I wasn't the best husband and I didn't make the environment as even as it should have been or a real partnership. I didn't know how important this was to her.
Just sux that I now know so much about myself and my M and I never will get the chance to be with her again.