Thanks Forward - I hope not to regret how I've handled all of this. I know that I'm doing my best, and I've owned my mistakes of the past with the knowledge that I've done the best that I can. With hindsight I can only wish that I would have handled some things differently, and unfortunately it's hindsight that fuels the guilt that I still carry.
H moved out 3 years ago, but I think I'm a LONG way from a minimally emotional D (heck if seeing "Ms." before my name sets me off)......... And as for dating...........I've only dated one man. I've been with my H since I was 14. I wouldn't even know how........and not an issue for me now really because I am still married............and pathetically still in love with a man that doesn't exist any more.
I still have a long way to go, because I make progress at an extremely slow pace, but each day brings me a bit more peace - but with setbacks from time to time I know I'm not DONE.
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
