I just keep thinking I might find something new that I haven't thought of to help?
So, after reading some of the posts, I sent my wife a text, basically said sorry for the outburst, its none of my business, and I hope we can try and get along for the kids sake and if she needs help with extra childcare I will do what I can to help, as they are the innocent party in all of this, no answer, no problem.
I did the triathlon sprint last night, well, I did the 750m swim, the 15mile cycle, but I got a major cramp in my leg about 1.5miles into the 3mile I had targeted, but for my first try I was really pleased, going to try again next week.
When I spoke to the kids last night, my S was asking about it straight away, he sounded excited about it, my D mentioned was I going in the olympics!!!!, Haha!!
So I have them again tonight, we will go out to eat somewhere, I'll let them choose.
I cannot help getting upset about how much worry the kids are going through, at first it was said that the split was only temporary, but the longer this goes on, and the seriousness of it must be affecting them, or at least playing on their mind, especially my son, I don't want to ask him about it, as I know it upset him, but it is a concern
I am really trying to forget about my wife, I'm making plans and have things that I want to try, but at the end of the day, she is the love of my life, my best friend,and I want her involved with what I do, I want to tell her about last night, and see her laugh when I say about the cramp, and the pain I was in.
They say never give up hope and trying, but the hope and trying hurts somethimes.
