And so when you say you've been driving him away for 12 years, it implies you know what you've done and how you've done that. Part of that is probably a feeling of not being appreciated and that you've gotten what you wanted (no or very little sex) and he hasn't.
And what you've produced, at best, is a man who has given up on you, on what it feels like to be close to you, on what it feels like to be vulnerable with you, and what it feels like to have your two bodies intertwined. At worst, you've crested a situation where someone else is preferable (emotional or otherwise) to being with you.
AND why believe your "getting it" at the last moment?
You are going to have deal with all of that before you get back to what he wants at a physical level and what you want from him being sexual with you once again.
The Captain
Last sex: 04/06/1997 Last attempt: 11/11/1997 W Issues "No Means No" Declaration: 11/11/1997 W chooses to terminate sex 05/1998 I gained 60, then lost 85 pounds. Start running again (marathons)
