Wife no longer in love with me - Part 3

[cam]

Just sent this to my W - why do I keep doing this and punishing myself:

W,

I'm sorry for calling this morning.....I guess I'm just sad and a few events have heightened that of late, mainly being X and Y getting engaged and it being 5 months today since you walked out.

Whilst I know you say too much has happened between us, I don't think it has. I am still committed to you and our marriage and still want to make this work. I have not and have no interest in being with anyone else. I am still your husband and I don't want to be or act single.
I have been doing so much work on myself and I have acknowledged and recognised my faults and contribution to where we are currently at. You have expressed your hurts and disappointment and I can see and understand what I did to make you feel that way.....everything you felt is valid.

Whilst you say we can't go back, in a way I agree. I don't want to go back to what that was like over the last 12 months - that wasn't enjoyable for anyone. Look at how often I was cranky or unhappy or a downer on things.....I wouldn't want that either. I can understand why you say you don't feel the same way about me.

I want to go back to what we had before that....the fun, laughs, bond, love we shared - all the good stuff which is still there. And I know I have the tools and experience now for us to get there. I would just like you to join me on this journey and work on fixing what we held so important in our lives - our marriage and our future together.

Cam