Wife no longer in love with me - Part 3

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OK, just stuffed up everything. I'm done.
Called my W to say 'hi' - not sure why. I've been so sad and down because my best friend just got engaged, and its 5 mths today that my W walked out for good.
Phone call didn't go well.
I asked her if she would consider working on the M with me, going to counselling again.
Told her I don't understand why she is doing this, why our marriage means so little to her.
She gave me the same answers - she doesn't feel the same way about me, it wasn't balanced enough, we've gone too far now.
She misses parts of us and me, but not enough to counter the negatives she sees. She says she's moved on and wants to put the last 8 years behind her and cut her losses.
I am such an idiot - why did I call, why did I say those things.
I can't bear this pain and hurt anymore.
I'm just done...I give up.