"I do still love him but not more than I love myself. Despite all of the good times, our history and the vows we made to each other, H is not good for me - and I do not love myself as much when I am with him, because he doesn't love me the way that a wife should really be loved. It is sad, because I really do think that he loves me with all of his heart, but I believe that his selfishness and narcissism cloud even the strongest of loves for him.
And so...I think in a sense I am now a WAW. Because if H wanted to come back today, I would say no. I do not believe in his ability to love me the way that I deserve and I do not believe in his ability to maintain a healthy M."
This spoke to me, tg007. It is exactly how I feel about my W. Thanks for saying it so honestly and eloquently.
BTW - real women have curves.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
