Hi Cam I know exactly how feel buddy. As I wright to you I feel nothing but dispair. Last night my W was cooking and I had this urge to beg and plea and ask her to sit and talk to me, to reconsider but resisted. This morning I was about a foot away from her standing and she did not run or move away and again that urge.
"Was considering calling her to tonight to beg her to consider what she's doing - so hard to restrain myself"
But the experienced DBers tells us that^^^^^^^^^^^this is not helpful.
YOU are only 35 and have a whole lot of living ahead of you. Are GALing? What are you doing for YOU?
I have been imagining in my head my life without W and what it would look like. It helps with the pain. I try to not think negative stuff (easier said than done).I know God will help us through this he always has and won't lets us down. They tell me that the pain goes away and things start to look up. Hang in there.
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
