"The less contact I seem to have the better off I am."

Same here. Anytime I see or talk to my W, the anxiety flares up. It's hard to resist the urge to reach out, but we have to do exactly that to preserve our PMA.

H 56
W 48
D27,S21
SS25
SS22 Severely autistic
M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs.
"I've never loved you" 3/7/2011
Separated 8/7/2011
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