Haven't posted anything for a week, trying to stay away and just read. I've just felt so low these last couple of days. I miss my W so much, and it just seems to get harder and harder each day. Went to the doctor tonight and she increased by anti depressant dosage - WTF has happened to me!! I am just a mess.
Reality is really sinking in that I will never be with my W again, the dreams and hopes I had for us for our future will never eventuate. I will never have a family with her.
I have really wrecked my life and everything I had good in it.
This pain doesn't seem to ever subside. So sick of crying and being without her.
Was considering calling her to tonight to beg her to consider what she's doing - so hard to restrain myself.


M 35
W 31
Separated 2/2011 but still together
Ended it 4/2011
Together 8 yrs
Married 3.5 yrs
Lawyers involved 6/2011