I just hope this latest episode hasn't banged the last nail in the coffin!!!
All of the advice, compliments, talking, clothes, her being interested in me, was all happening, we were really connecting, she even told her family how well we were getting on, how happy the kids were etc.
Then he comes back into the picture and BOOM!!!!
So I know what I have to do, and I know what works.
What I have identified is that I need to get control over the OM issue, this is really hard, but has to be done.
If I had of continued the way it was and managed to control that anger I would now be still in contact with my wife, still talking and laughing, and maybe sowing a little doubt in her mind.
Now it's just pushed her further away!!!!!
But she also knows how good it could be, I know I totally over reacted, and I regret it, but I hurt, I need to let go, I say it, I know it, but it's hard.
So I just stay away,and wait.
On a positive note, I'm doing a Sprint Triathlon tonight!!! Half mile swim, 15 mile cycle, and 3 mile run
Its only a taster but I'm looking forward to it, I told the kids about it last night and they sounded really excited, I'm sure that will get back to her!!!!
I need to keep off these boards, It only makes me think more about her, I need to stop, and get on with my life and what I want.
