I did end up hearing from H late last night. Got a lame 'sorry about today'. His excuse was a lame one that his phone was dead (this coming from a guy who went ballistic when I didn't hear my phone a while back when he called- the hypocrisy is amazing!). I was somewhat un-db like in my response- I didn't fuss at him, but I did tell him I didn't appreciate getting stood up. He apologized again, but I ended the conversation quickly.
He ended up at D's class again tonight, and gave me the puppy dog eyes asking if I hated him. Told him no, and then he asks if I still love him. I changed the subject. I haven't told him I loved him lately even when he's told me. I don't know if that's the right DB thing to do there, but that's what my heart tells me to do.
While D was in class we did have an opportunity to discuss her behavior, which as I have said is very troubling to me. He definitely seemed concerned, and at first I thought he was going to blame me for her problems (that's what he has done in the past). He did surprise me, though, and just acknowledged it. He asked me why I thought it was happening, and I again told him I thought it was stress from our situation. Not much response but I could tell he was taking it in.
After class he asked if we wanted to grab dinner and I agreed because I really think D needs some time with him. During dinner D leans over to 'tell me a secret'. She asked me to kiss H. I asked her out loud (so he could hear her say this) and she grinned and said it again. Of course, we did. I think this was a good thing, albeit sad, of how much she notices our interactions with each other. We were always very affectionate, and now its hit or miss. But at least he can see first hand how this situation is affecting our sweet little girl. It said more about it than anything I could have said to him- out of the mouth of babes, right?
As we were leaving tonight he did mention going out with just me tomorrow- I sort of ignored the comment because I really don't think I want to go. Not sure how I'm going to handle that one if he brings it up again.
I did get some exercising in today, so I was proud of that since I've been slacking lately. Mentally today was a tough day, I missed H and was just in a generally foul mood. Trying to do more GALing, but the stuff I've been trying to plan lately has been falling apart on me. I did some work today towards a business I'm trying to start, so I think I'll focus on that for now.
Thanks again, JB and all those keeping up with my sitch.
