H being very mean again today. He has also avoided the kids for about a week and he claims it is because he doesn't enjoy spending time with them when I am around. Comments like that are like water off a ducks back to me at this point. It is now all about his fixings. Yes, I still have work to do but at least I am doing work.

I wish I had thought before hand to make some sort of chart/scale of my pain factor and/or tension in the house. I am pretty sure we would have seen the worst during the month of August. It is slightly improved now. We are probably equal with the month of July, which was also a terrible month. Hopefully that also means that the month of October will be like June, which was bad, but not unbearable (and H and I were still sleeping together and ML).


Me: 32/ H: 32/ S13/ D5
T: 15/ M: 8
Rock bottom: 4/11
ILYB: 5/11, but I knew it at least a yr before
Gaining acceptance: 8/11

You must be the change you wish to see. - Mahatma Gandhi