Angel, For what It's worth, I think u did good by emailing ur h after u felt like u messed up. U r showing yourself that u r committed to changing behavior that u r not happy with. Because these changes r for u.
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12