"I am a fool. Love her, want to be there for her, but I am a fool."

Absolutely not true. You are filled with grief and missing the woman you built a life with, but that is not the mark of a fool. Now, if you stay stuck where you are for the next several months...then we might start to wonder.

Get out of the house, AC. That is where the demons live. Trust me, I know. Force yourself to just get in the car, or on a bike, or whatever mode will get you away from there and go.

You will get through this.

H 56
W 48
D27,S21
SS25
SS22 Severely autistic
M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs.
"I've never loved you" 3/7/2011
Separated 8/7/2011
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