time and distance

[any chance?]

Met with my IC today. Interesting timing as the brutal 'tough love' conversation with our great friends has me spinning and very depressed.

I need to gather my strength and move forward without W. I cannot do anything for her, and I cannot control what is going to happen. In my very low points, I visualize only the worst outcome. I cannot predict the outcome, but I cannot sit here thinking she is coming back. She did not move away to 'heal', she moved away to get away from me and her situation here, IMO.

I need to GAL. I need to avoid self medicating. I do not want to go on meds. I need to move forward. I need to avoid becoming a shell of my former self. I need to get out of this mental dark place I am in. I need to accept reality.