Not quite in midseason form...yet

[MadeToSucceed]

From where I sit, the more you talk about and focus on her (OM is an extension of that, obviously) the more stuck you are in your pain

and the less you move forward.

You must change. You must move forward. So stop the thinking about OM#1 or#2 or #8947....just stop it.

You have no control over it.

Why would you even know what her twitters say?

I understand what you're saying. I don't TRY to think about them...it's tough though when you're watching a football game and then they break in to show a highlight of one of them scoring a touchdown or something.

I don't know what she says on twitter because I don't look. I'm not trying to let stuff rule my life...I guess I was just trying to convey how I FELT this weekend. I wasn't in a rut all day Friday, Saturday and Sunday or anything. It literally "started" late Sunday afternoon and just carried into this morning...this morning more so because my grandfather was leaving and I was "alone" again...and less because of my W or anyone. I'm trying...I was just using this as an outlet to discuss my feelings on things that happened. In the future I'll only post about me and GAL'ing though. If I feel something I'll just write it down and put it in a box in the closet...that way I can still "get it out" but not have to continue to harp on something in particular.

I do know better and I'm doing everything I can to get out from underneath it all...I'm just having a tough time every now and then.