Journaling - I think I need to take a break from my life
Sunday morning I ran my first half-marathon. Finished at 1:54:24; had lots of fun doing it (though I'm a little sore today). Hung out at the beer tent for a little bit, had a couple with some pizza and talked to a bunch of people.
While I was there, W and another female friend texted me asking how it went. Replied to both after running an errand. Heard from MIL this morning that W was wondering why it took so long for me to respond, even though she didn't say anything back when I did. OK...
So here's the point in the story where I learn I need to be careful. After having some champagne, watching a football game and taking a nap friend texted me. She was joking around, saying "Marathon training starts tomorrow;-)" and I responded "Ugh! Will you bring me some food?" Friend lives a good 20-30 minutes away and I was joking, but she says sure, what do you want? Wasn't sure if she was serious, so I asked her for recommendations, she gave some, and I told her what sounded good. Texted a few more times back and forth until last text before she got there "btw, I'm a sad bunny :-( please have jokes/silly dance/kitty pics ready!!!" Hmmm....
Turns out friend and her bf of 3 years just broke up. We sat at my apartment for a couple of hours talking about all sorts of stuff. This friend is the one that I had a huge crush on last year, and while I don't feel the same about her anymore I do still like her. In a way it was odd but it was also really nice. Walked her back out to her car and we gave each other a big hug. We did a little more flirty texting when she got home where she mentioned we should do this again soon.
Thankfully I can see all the potential traps here and I'll assume for my own sake that I'm just a male friend that she can commiserate with. I don't want to complicate my life any further, even though the temptation might be there to do so. It's one thing to flirt with random waitresses, etc. for a small ego boost. It's another thing entirely to go beyond that with someone who's a friend to both W and I...
GAL Man, you ask if the interactions between W and I are working for me. After talking with friend about our SO's yesterday, both good and bad, I'm not really sure. I know I love her and can point out so much good in her, but I wonder if I want her back *now* the way she is. It's not something I need to answer right this moment, but I suppose at some point it might be. I wonder what my answer will be?
Anyhoo, this week's GAL activities: concert in Detroit tonight, work trip Wednesday, meals on wheels Friday, art shows in Grand Rapids on Saturday and a book show next Sunday. Taking the week off for running, but only because I was advised to
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011
