My thread was over 10 pages, so I started a new one. I copied my last post and pasted here.
Had a wonderfully relaxing weekend
STBXH has let me go (at least for the weekend). no contact until this morning when he finally realized that he owes me money. He brought the $ over this morning and took the girls to school. no coffee ;)I was in my bathroom getting ready so only saw him for just a moment and it was friendly but nothing more. I left for work early so that we didn't have to "hang out". He was staying to lift weights in the basement (he did ASK me first which was nice, and I thanked him for asking.)
I can't tell you the relief. peace. I also have a feeling of gratitude towards him that he is doing what I asked. It is so much easier to detach when the person you are detaching from is also detaching. Last week I suggested that he should be alone for a while. away from her. away from me. He didn't comment, but maybe he is trying? At least with me which is better than nothing.
Yesterday, D13 and I sat down and she took the 5 love languages test for teenagers and so did I. Her top 2 were words of affermation and qualilty time - I thought they would be words of affermation and gifts! we discussed this...my top LL for my Ds is Acts of Service. This is what D13 said to me:
That is totally not fair mom! I have to DO STUFF for you to say that I love you and all you have to do is SAY I LOVE YOU?!!!! no way, I change my test! my LL is gifts!
ROFLMAO!! teenagers. yikes.
Caught up on my sleep this weekend - took really long naps during the day both Saturday and Sunday. So nice. Just turned my mind blank for a while. I don't like to be depressed, my IC says that I naturally fight it which is good. So I decided enough was enough. I can stop feeling sorry for myself now. Stop getting angry because "people don't understand me" (wow, pretty pathetic). And just be.
Work is stressful right now, lots of projects coming to an end. Still need to raise a bunch of money Are any of you a secret millionaire and looking for a good cause to donate? let me know! lol!
No movement on the house. We are going to have to drop the price. We have to sell!!
I hope everyone has a great week Thank you all again for helping me stay on track and finish this thing out.
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
