I don’t think she is full blown MLC if that is possible. We decided that we should have a trial separation some 5 weeks ago. She had offered to be the one to move out, then tried to get me to go, feeling that I had done nothing wrong so why should I go, plus if she was out of the home environment it may benefit her more, she is after all the one with the issues! She left.
I was somewhat nervous about what she may get up to, but staying with her aunt she appears to have stayed in, so no partying etc.
I went to Dr with list of what I felt were her symptoms, he felt that subject to seeing her and discounting anything physically wrong that she was depressed. Strangely this gave me some hope but I had always felt depression was in there somewhere, but with what else !! She has only just agreed to get help, but not sure if she will go when the day arrives.
Anyway, yesterday she said at the moment there is no marriage and that she does not love me, but could feel different next week/month, much as she said nearly 6 months ago, so a lot of pain and little or no progress.
She felt that the last 5 weeks had shown her that she can deal with the childhood abuse issues, just another complication! When you write it down it makes you think ‘what the ----‘, and why not walkaway. D19 home from Uni. said that she has had enough of her mother and that it was because of her she was so keen to go to Uni. Claimed not to have felt relaxed in her own home.
Not sure what to do now, I still love her but even if she came home tomorrow I cannot accept her at all costs as it were. I want to shout and rant and rave at her, but afraid it might finally kill everything off, if it isn’t already.
