I haven't posted in a very long time, but I feel the need to do so today. My 40yr. old daughter is on her own MLC, all the usual signs. She is so out there, I cant reach her, but I kow that from my own journey.She has 5 kids,1 of them 17 and twins that just turned 14. There are in a bunch of hurt.I see my husband in her all over again.Her husband has moved on tho,he still loves her but he thinks he will never be able to trust her again.But what hurts the most is how my granddaughters are hurting.They have lost all respect for her. So sad she cant see the harm she is doing.....I see it in their eyes and they sigh so deeply when they are here with me. I try to tell them she is on a journey, that one day when she grows up again she will realize all she has done, I tell them to lover her no mater what she is doing, that is all we can do for her......but mostly to pray for her. I am so sad because I wonder if what I did in her young life somehow affect her into a MLC.I was a good mom,I was 21 when I was a WAS... now I wonder if that event in her life got her to where she is now...... God is still in control but I sure do feel beat up tonight...we had a big fight told her I felt like she was taking advantage of me.....I feed them, house them,am there for them, but I get tired and have my own 17 yr old to worry about. but I cant just let my granddaughters go with out, but it is a big burden financially for me..... She has turned into an 18yr old all over again...clothes ...car...promiscuity..... thanks for listening...I dont have many friends I can turn to....my mom is here but not here...she has ahlziemers and cant remember from one minute to the next on things we talked about.... But I thank God she is still here,she is 87yrs. old I love her dearly but I miss my mom.... Just writing here has given me some sort of relief..... As far as my XH he has contact occasionally with the children...but as far as I am concerned I dont exist to him....but I am good......Irma
