Stillness

[aeolianchaos]

HUGE positive. It mean's all your hard work.. is working.

I don't know how much I think of it in terms of being a huge positive. I would like to believe that it is, I really would.

It is hard for me to see my work as hard right now - because I view it as almost essential to moving forward in my life.

At times, this can make me feel a little anxious and

I am doing my best to keep detached. Being busy has helped: spent the last 3 days at a convention of sorts, meeting people and talking has helped. Tough to explain a lot of things though when they ask about what brought me to live here.. I've occasionally referred to WAW as "XW" or "W" and referred to STBXFIL as FIL. I don't really want to be bringing that situation into the conversation with strangers.

As far as having expectations is concerned: I'm doing my best not to, and definitely not planning or acting based on any of those things when they pop into my head.

Val, Thank you for contributing your insights to my thread. I really appreciate it.