"I would discuss it with h about filing in person but i dont think he can take anymore stress now."
Another excuse. He has the OW right now to help deal with his stress. It's not your problem anymore.
He keeps pushing you to get another car. I can see from your posts that you are leaning towards doing so with your mutual finances. But you keep complaining about his spending habits.
Why don't you just say "thank you but we just can't afford it right now" and leave it at that? Again, what steps are you taking to make your situation better? He showed up on his own so it had nothing to do with your efforts. What are your mini goals?
Or do you want to stay miserable for another 4 years?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.