Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

wish W didn't want s. She is being a REAL BITC! tonight. OMG WHO IS THIS PERSON???????

I actually make more money, so I'm lucky there, but I'd give it all up just to have my son with me.

I'm trying unsuccessfully to adjust to the new sleeping arangement. I'm in a king sized bed alone with two doggies. I really miss having her here, even if she wsa distant.... She is just an alien now.

Got to let her go on her own journey... I'm just so sad. iwonder if I'll make it.....really I do. These depths are So bad. She's oblivious to my pain. It's like she's just put up a wall and doesn't care.

I think my In-laws are really pushing her not to mention i think ow is pushing her to get away from me. MY GOD my self esteem is takin some large whacks. I've heard sh!T about myself tonight I can't even believe someone could say about me. Especially someone who supposedly loved me for over a decade. Bitch.