Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

yes, you are right. I guess if I treat her as if she's insane I can drop the rope and just let it all happen. STOP trying to control any of it.

It does bother me that the OW has such a negative reputation.... but OTOH part of me is glad.....like ok, go be with this B and let her F you over....Please, be my guest....LOL. But I love W so much the biggest part of me wants her to NOT be hurt and it makes me very sad.

I miss the W who is no longer here. She's become so COLD and DISTANT and telling me so many things I can't believe she would ever say about me, about us, about our past. WOW. I had read other posters talk about this type of thing but no, I thought. My W is not that type....nahhhh, she would never rewrite our history. Hmmmm. Live and learn.

I'm still reeling from the "You don't care about anyone...." remarks. dam*ed if you do and d if you don't. I've heard it all now. Like i said....heart on my sleeve....now f*ing i don't have a heart? DROPPING the rope the best i can.

Even though I don't want her to move - leave - part of me is just saying.....he@! GO!!! At least I won't have to hear this nonsense and live with this ALIEN who has taken over my beautiful W's body. Horrible. Horrible. Life has tken a turn for the SUKK.